Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Two decades old.

Exactly one month from today I will no longer be apart of the age group classified as 'Teenagers'. Scary. Weird. Can't quite get a good grasp on that whole idea.

All you 21 year olds, 30 year olds, and well...those of you who can't even count how many years it has been since you were a teenager, I am sure are laughing right now.

Laugh away.

I know I have melodramatic tendencies, but, this is a big deal guys. I remember when I turned ten, a whole decade old! "Double Digits!" It was a HUGE deal (in my mind anyways) and I felt such a weight of responsibility in my 'old age'. Not kidding guys, you think I am dramatic now, I was waaaay worse then. I remember initiating a very serious talk with my mom right after my tenth birthday, and I told her all about how old I felt now, and how I didn't feel like people treated me old enough. Yep. I was serious too. I think there were tears shed ;) And now to think that I have doubled that number, I am about to be two whole decades old.

It is sad, scary, and wonderful all at the same time.

I am sure that when the day comes I wont feel any different, but my mindset is already changing. I can't imagine what it will be like the first time I have to tell someone that I am TWENTY years old. It sounds ANCIENT. (yeah, I can hear the laughter for sure now :)

But, enough of my melancholy wanderings...I was just feeling my bones creak tonight and decided to share my feelings with y'all. If you all have any ideas of things that maybe I should do before I turn twenty please let me know, and I will try and work it into my schedule.

Maybe I will post some memories and funny things about my 'growing up' years over the next few weeks or so. I am laughing already as I think of all that I could tell you about :)


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"When I am sixteen I am going to wear my hair up, just like Alice Bell." ~Anne

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Practically an "old maid"...


~Jessica Shae

4 comments:

Ruth Ann said...

I found your blog a few days ago, and have enjoyed your posts. :)

I notice you have my dear Mandy's blog linked to yours...(Mandy Novotny) - so, you must have been to IPS before. Or I can just imagine you have. See, I did last September, and oh what a delightful time it was. Mandy is one of my heroes, a really special person in my life, but I assume you know what I mean so I won't go on about that right now. :)

I'm 21, but I thoroughly enjoyed your post. I still feel 'so young', which of course I am, but the months and year ensuing up to the time that I turned 20, I dreaded the whole thing. Me, 20? It didn't seem right. Something was wrong. I was quite dramatic about it, and people rolled their eyes and are like "oh you'll get over it." Ha, turning 21 was a bit easier, but months later I think "me? 21?" It's so wrong....*grin* I don't even want to think about turning 22. So I'm right there with you. I thought your post was really cute and understandable - I liked it. :) Just so you know...some 'strange' person knows your feelings.

God Bless!
Ruth Ann

Ruth Ann said...

and sure...go ahead and post those 'growing up' stories, that sounds like fun. :)

Unknown said...

Well, if you really want some GOOD stories, you should ask me, Mom! Boy do I have some doozies!

Ruthann Marie said...

Okay yes I have admit, I laughed when I read this. ;-) But it was a good laugh! Love you!!!